Wonderful 2007!
Lots of memories..
Lots of sadness...
Lots of lessons...
Lots of thanks as well...
First and foremost,
I would like to thank our Lord Jesus for giving me such a wonderful year with joys and hardship, and leads my challenging life!! All the glory to the Lord!!
Also, my beloved dad and mum. Thanks for supporting me for this whole year. Thank you dad for being my bank and thank you mum for feeding me so much till you always call me fatty. Thank you for your love and understanding, providing what i need and always giving me the best decision.
Big bro and sis, little bro and sis, thank you!
Thanks for helping me when i'm in difficulties and gives me a lot of advises. Thanks for being my rubbish bin as well. There are still a lot of things need to be shared with you all.
Thanks also to all Hope friends..
Allowing me to have such a memorable holiday in January 2007...
The breakthrough, the penguins, the Permai, the services, the gatherings, the fellowship....
Thank you Mr. Morgan for bringing me to Hope Sibu..
Miss the moment we talk in the car, bullying those little boys behind..haha...
Also the days you always accompany me at night while I was in Klang..
Thanks for your support and cares..
Thank you Mr. Edmund for lighting up part of my life in February..
Sorry for rejecting.. Guess that you are still escaping from me.. But I really hope that we are still friends.. I'll always remember the days we had together and the whole night (25/2) you accompanied me before I left Sibu..
Thank you Mr. Desmond. Eventhough you hurt me deeply, still I'd like to thank you for your support when I faced difficulties in my study life. I knew your cares, I felt your loves, but.. really sorry.. As what I told your mum, and as what suggested by your mum, sis, and bro.. I should give up. Till now, you still remains. I really hope that you can be more mature. Anyway, I'll always remember the sweet memories we had together. I really enjoy and happy to be with you and you always tried your best to fulfil me and make me happy.
Thank you all the future pharmacists in cohort 08..
We have joy, we have fun, during our study time.. the killings, dissecting, dispensing, counseling... And class trip!!!
Also thanks to cg members in Klang. Thank you Daniel, Shyong, Keegan, Micheal, Chiew Yang, Yong, Sarah, Nicole, Wei Ming, Jian Chuang, and Sunny.. Thanks for all your supports and cares.
Thank you Mr. Jesse and Ms. Karen for allowing us to join carrot competition and became the big winner!!
Thank you piggy gang (Jo, Veron, Ann and Zoe). You are my great supporter!!
Special thanks to Ms. Veron as you really helped me a lot in my daily life and studies in Klang.
Thank you Melody and Rachel. Thank you Rach for allowing me to stay in KL and brought me to somewhere I don't know. Also, thanks Melody for being my alarm, study with me and bia with me. Miss the days we struggle together..haha...we chat more than we study...
Also, Mr. Thomas, thanks for being understanding and giving me supports eventhough I know that you are very busy for your study life in China.
Never forget Mr. Samuel as well. Thanks for helping me and being my rubbish bin as well. Thanks for bringing me to relax myself when I was down..
Finally, thank you everyone who had being part of my life..
~THANK YOU~
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 !!
GoodBye 2007!
Comment from her
"Why settle for second best? When God's waiting to give you His BEST!!"
A very good phrase from my friend's pastor.
She passed this message to me and again... I should be STRONG!!!
Top 10 Reasons For Dating A Pharmacist !!!!
1-Very clean life style and bed style too.
2-We are well trained to listen.
3-Drug Dealers….with a license! Hell yea..
4-Free drugs, condoms, and birth control pills…We play safe!
5-When it comes to measures, we are precise, gentle, and got a whole bunch of leaks before reaching the end point! LOL, don’t u just love Titration?!
6-We know quite enough anatomy, to know what works and where.
7-We own a variety of lotions, creams and gels, and aren't afraid to use them.
8-We do it on the counter, in the car, and on hospital beds all day long.
9-We never miss a target ;)
10-Love is all about chemistry, right? …Well so is Pharmacy !
How naughty are you??!!
Choose your month, day, and colour of shirt that you are wearing.
Put them together and write your statement in a comment....
Come on give it a shot.
Pick the month you were born in:
January - I kissed
February - I killed
March - I ran naked with
April - I raped
May - I killed
June - I cuddled with
July - I had sex with
August - I ran shirtless with
September - I stabbed
October - I ate out
November - I slept with
December- I smoked with
Pick the day (number) you were born on
01 - the kool-aid man
02 - a horse
03 - a pornstar
04 - a toothbrush
05 - you
06 - a bag of weed
07 - your boyfriend
08 - your mom
09 - a emo kid
10 - a homo
11 - Paris Hilton
12 -the trojan man
13 - a whore
14 - a cat
15 - a pickle
16 - paris hilton
17 - a bisexual
18 - a dog
19 - an orange
20 - a crackhead
21 - a bowl of cereal
22 - an easter egg
23 - a prostitute
24 - a condom
25 - a jar of honey
26 - a lesbian
27 - a stripper
28 - a french fry
29 - your dealer
30 - a homeless guy
31 - your grandma
Pick the color of shirt you are wearing
White - because thats how I roll bitch
Black - because I'm sexy
Pink - because I love weed
Red - because I have AMAZING boobs
Blue - because I'm a pimp and your jealous
Polka Dots - because I hate my life
Purple - because I'm gay
Gray - Because the lil people told me to
Other - because I have double D's
Green - because I'm beautiful
Orange - because I smoke crack
Turqoise - because I have a noodle in my nose
Brown - because i like to
Shirtless - because I've got abs
Words to someone...
8 days passed...
Didn't get to hear your sound for 8 days...
Days without your news, your voice...
I couldn't explain how's the feeling...
I'm just trying to get myself into the life without you...
I know that I'm looking for excuses to tell myself that you are VERY busy!
I don't know what had happen on you...
Or...maybe I'm just too troublesome for you...
I don't dare to disturb you all the times...
That's why I don't even dare to send a message to you...
You are a busy man in my heart...
I don't dare to go closer to you...
You are a fierce tiger when you are busy...
I have no idea what should I say now...
Maybe I'm just thinking too much...
Or...I'm just missing a friend whom I care for?
Or...Do I ... hmmm... nothing... Let God decides...
I really hope that I don't want to quarrel with you...
Eventhough you said that you are tension most of the times...
I choose to be silent because I want peace...
I choose not to sms you because I don't want quarrel...
I choose to keep all the sadness in my heart because I don't want to burden you...
Now...
I choose to leave my words here because I hope that you can understand me...
I hope that you can be truthful to me...
And I hope that the ways that I chose to do...are good ways...
If not...do let me know...
I miss the days you brought me to cg...
Miss the conversations we had in the car...
Miss the time we had at the beach...
Miss the days we quarrel on phone when I was in Klang...
Miss the voice I listened every night before I sleep...
Miss the supports I had when I was down...
Miss the discussions we had together before...
Miss those days I lied on the bed, talking with you...
I really miss it...
But now...
I lost it...
真假难分
到底什么是真心？真情？
很不明白。。。
真的很搞 不懂为何爱一个人要那么辛苦？
经不起爱的考验吗?
爱一个人就要面对失去朋友的痛苦吗？
那不是真心朋友吧！！
就算是情敌，
爱始终还是爱。
我有我的自由去爱一个我爱的人。
当然我也没有勉强他来爱我，
一切爱的权力还是掌握在他的手中，
既然他选择了他爱的，
那有 什么不对呢？？？
是我的错吗？？？
你们非要拆散我们不可吗？
身为朋友就更应该祝福啊！！！！
而你们呢？？？！！！
为何要不择手段来拆散我们呢？？
不甘心吗？还是要试探我们的感情有多坚固呢？
省省力气和时间吧！！！
我把你们当成姐妹，
而你们呢？
处处捏造谣言来破坏我对他的信任？
够了！！！！
Fate or ???
Missed a call from a precious friend who left to China to further his study.
He's so busy and I was in blur case when I saw his call and yet I didn't answer.
Really sad... knowing that he's fine... but... always disturbed by outsider while he was sleeping...
Hoping that he can have a peaceful day...
Chatted with a friend who worked in Adelaide...
A guy who always busy and would not have time to chat...
But finally he came to me and chat with me...
Sounds surprising...
Anyway, hoping that his interview is fine in Brisbane tomorrow...
Went to a cg tonight...
Get to see all the cg members....
My leader can't even remember my name...
Sob...
Anyway, really enjoyed myself in cg...
Gathered with old friends....
Talking our new lives....(especially in relationship)
Some married, some pakto...
Some still studying...
everything changed....
Guai guai lui become open minded...
Kids get influenced by daddy....
Oh my God....
Where is the good daddy????
烟火
是否还记得
一起看烟火
我在你眼里
看到闪烁
冷冽的寒风
把你吹向我
抱你在我怀中
没想太多
爱情里的心动
常常让我难以去捉摸
付出感情太多
原来多情人
总被伤的最重
想起你的拥抱
这感觉 短暂纪念
在你我之间
有时说变就变
就像烟火
下一秒消失不见
想起你的微笑
这画面 短暂纪念
放在心里面
你说过的永远
留在昨天
就当它是
我最美的纪念
冷冽的寒风
把你吹向我
抱你在我怀中
没想太多
爱情里的心动
常常让我难以去捉摸
付出感情太多
原来多情人
总被伤的最重
想起你的拥抱
这感觉 短暂纪念
在你我之间
有时说变就变
就像烟火
下一秒消失不见
想起你的微笑
这画面 短暂纪念
放在心里面
你说过的永远
留在昨天
就当它是
我最美的纪念
我的心情
今天已换了季
天边出现彩虹
晴朗阳光
洒在我的天空
闪烁 喔...
像是笑着告诉我
爱到最后是宽容
想起你的拥抱
这感觉 短暂纪念
在你我之间
有时说变就变
就像烟火
下一秒消失不见
想起你的微笑
这画面 短暂纪念
放在心里面
你说过得永远
留在昨天
就当它是
我最美的纪念
还有你陪我
走过这一切
记忆中你
那些微笑的脸
Pig?!
Some interesting theories about human and pigs :
Human = eat + sleep + work + enjoy
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence,
Human = Pigs + work + enjoy
if, Human - enjoy = Pigs + work
in other words,
Human that don't know how to enjoy = pigs that work
Men = eat + sleep + earn money
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence,
Men = Pigs + earn money
if, Men - earn money = Pigs
in other words,
Men that don't earn money = Pigs
Women = eat + sleep + spend
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence,
Women = Pigs + spend
if, Women - spend = Pigs
In other words,
Women that don't spend = Pigs
Summary:
Men earn money not to let women become pigs!
Women spend not to let men become pigs!
Men + Women = 2 Pigs
Wish all the pigs happy forever.
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Fluing...
Feeling that I am very very weak at the moment...
I'm tired......
Flu...flu...flu.... kills me...
Bad dreams......visited me for few nights.....
I should stop my mind from thinking anything...
I should clear my mind now....
I need more rests.....
yea.. I should surrender everything to God...
do not ever judge everything before anything happens...
What is in his mind??
How much should I trust him?
Maybe there's a gap between us...
Lacking of communication??
But, what should I do?
I don't care...I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!
DON ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME BUT THERE'S NO ACTION!!!!
I've nothing to say...
Just let me sleep and rest..
给大男人的话
认识你也有一年半的时间，
对你的思念也渐渐地加深。
可是面对你却有一阵阵的恐惧。
偶尔很想可以跟你好好的聊天，
可是我却可以理解你的忙碌。
和你相处的日子，
让我觉得很有压力。
也许你有大男人的风范，
我知道，那是大部分男人的性格。
但一般上，那只会给女人带来压迫感，
学习体谅也许不会那么遭。
你的大声你的凶，
我只能保持沉默，
我不会跟你斗嘴，
那是我的性格。
也许我们缺少了沟通，
你的冷漠也让我心灰意冷。
我承认，这些日子，
我很失望。
但我只能默默接受一切，
就算有缘无分，我也甘心。
我很难过。。。
November Series
After finishing my final exam, spending 2 days rushing for MCBT reports, coming to an end of October.
Stepping into the month of November, which keeps me in a way that I have no time to blog. Let's see what happened in November!
1st Nov PaintBall
2nd Nov CG meeting
3rd Nov Sunway Pyramid shopping (so sad that I didn't have the chance to play ice skating)
4th Nov Church Service
5th Nov REST & pack my stuffs in Klang
6th Nov Sing k at Neway, Puchong
CM's Birthday celebration at Luna Bar
7th Nov Ipoh trip (get to taste their famous Old Town white coffee, Gei Si Ho Fun & Nga Choi Gei)
8th Nov Ipoh Trip (Gopeng - rafting, jungle trekking for Rafflesia)
9th Nov Ipoh Trip (Caving at Gua Tempurung, visit the Pamelo stalls, taste Ipoh famous yan su chicken)
Everything ended at Yi Keat's house with memories...
10th Nov Reaching Cyberjaya (killed by taxi driver! Geramnya~)
11th Nov Went 1 Utama, the Curve & IKEA (damn tiring)
12th Nov A bad day!!!!! (missed my flight to kuching just because of 5 minutes late to LCCT!!!!!!!!!!)
13th Nov Bought a new air ticket to Kuching
Final exam results coming out!!! Thank God for everything~~~
14th Nov Causeway Bay Hong Kong Restaurant (my favourite Dim Sum)
Siang Siang Corner (long talk till 12am)
15th Nov Isabella & Majong Friendship Park
16th Nov DinoTrack
The Color Cafe & The Office Pub
17th Nov Tun Jugah shopping
Iglool for non-sugar ice-cream (my lovely lovely sweety)
KFC & movie time (Beowulf)!!!!
18th Nov Church Service at Chin Daw
Cat Museum & Sarawak Library
Causeway Bay Hong Kong Restaurant - no fate with Japanese food
(my pity sushi sushi...come come...)
19th Nov Permai Beach (sunset viewing)
Steamboat at Jalan Nanas (Crab crab eating)
20th Nov Sushi sushi~~ at Tun Jugah
Dye dye my hair
Back to Cyberjaya
THEN????
To be continued...
Aiming for Genting Trip!!! Yeah~~
Stress? Wine? Beer?
Messages from him...
Today = gift from God
Li Bai's poem
(1) ( Original Version)
Chuang qian ming yue guang
Yi shi di shang shuang
Ju tou wang ming yue
Di tou shi gu xiang
(2) ( English Version)
The moon light is pouring down on my bedside
Like white frost spreading on the ground
I look up the bright round moon in the sky
And lower my head thinking of my dear hometown
(3) ( Singlish - Phua Chu Kang Version)
Bedfront Moon Bright Bright
Think Is Floor White White
Lift Head See Moon Moon
Bow Head Miss Home Home...
(4) ( Ah-Beng Version)
Bedfront Orr Pi Sai (pick nose)
Think Think Go Pang Sai
Pick Up Tai Gor Tai (handphone)
Bull Shit While Lau Sai
(5) ( Latest Reservist Army Version)
Bedfront Lau Bark Sai (tears drop)
Thinking About Exercise (reservist mobilization)
Drop Dead Look Into The Sky (run until no
breathe)
Tong Kor Sia Lang Zai? (my sadness nobody knows)
(6) ( Osama version)
No friend at my side
Think think Bush will fight
Lift head but where to hide?
This time don't know when will die ?
(7) ( Bush version)
Can't sleep since that night
Think think where he hide ?
Bomb bomb friends will say I pai
No choice ask them go fly kite
To the special ones... (ENCC, MWKH, DLSY, THCE)
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
~也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
~也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
~也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。~THCE
~也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。~ENCC
~也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
~也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。~DLSY
~也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。~MWKH
不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。
每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。
你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。
做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？
很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
that is why I 不肯踏出这一步。
因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。
有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。
也是可惜，也是遗憾！
但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . .
MY pharmacy~
Thanks...but...
Stepping into October, somebody had reminded me that I'm going to reach "20"...
Hardly accept it...
i used to tell myself, I'm always 18...
and i had a long time of going through my 19...
and now...
reaching 20!!!!!
NO!!!!!!
I cant accept it!!!!!
I'm still havent ready to go into life of 20!!!
Perhaps...
I am who I am...
It's fact...
I have to accept it eventhough i dont wish to...
Thanks Veronica so much for her creative and loving gift!!!
I love them so so so so much!!!!
Thanks for reminding me that I'm no longer staying 19....sob...
Anyway, thanks for everything...
Thank God for letting me reaching 20 after passing through so much of adventureous life...
Hopefully I can have a better 20th life.....
3 weeks left...
It's quite emo for me these few days...
Why??? i don't really know it...
I started to worry him so much...
Until we get to chat for 4 hours non-stop in order to release my discomfort...
Thanks for the encouragements...
It really helps to build up our bridge again..
Am I lonely?
No, I'm not.
Perhaps there's someone deep in my heart.
However, I couldn't tell him anything to embarrase us.
He lets me broken heart when I get to see his new partner.
Anyway, no blaming to him.
Just because I knew that we never got chance to be together.
That's why I'm just keeping you as one of my friend, my brother.
All the best to you..
3 weeks left, I have to try my best to pass all my subjects...
Hopefully I can leave my sad place by next year...
I have no mood to think any other thing...
Please don't stress me...
But encourage me and pray for me...
Everybody, gambateh!!!
Happy Birthday, Lawrence!
Happy Mooncake Festival, everyone!
It's Mid-Autumn festival..
Once again, wishing everyone has a wonderful celebration...
I had mine with all my coursemates, enjoyed indeed a wonderful night with them...
It's a great night...
Enjoy...
Prayer, strengthens me...
What had happen to me?
Literature review makes me crazy!!
An assignment that frustrated me lots...
I don't know what to say...
Perhaps that's a moral to me...
I should relax more, but not hurry myself!
In fact, there's nothing to be perfect..
Few nights couldn't sleep well..
Looking into the sky,
dark clouds had covered the bright moon...
no stars at all...
what does it represents?
Hiding myself in the bed,
peeping through the window...
everything seems dark...
Sadness were hidden in my heart...
Why am I so stressful?
Shouldn't I relax?
What had went on?
A mistake that I shouldn't do?
Sigh...
I need more encouragements...
I need to pray harder...
Go nearer to God...
I trust that God is always there for me...
as long as i never leave Him...
Jude 1:20 ~ But you dear friends, build yourself up in your most holy faith and pray in the Holy Spirit.
Yea~ I should pray...
In fact, prayer strengthens my heart...
Hoping for a miracle tomorrow...
Bon voyage, Thomas!
Has the problems gone?
Receiving a surprising call from him in the midnight...
Well, just a normal chatting...
Feeling a lot better than previous chattings...
Thanks God...
Hope he is doing well in his new life...
I'm OFF...
Busy... Busy... Busy...
Nevermind...
Enjoy the laughings and chattings during the pre pharm lab preparations...
Enjoy the processes during lab sessions...
Relax for the tough M&I assignment... sweat
More updates soon...
PRE - Fairy Tales (part 2)
my impression in his heart...
"from the 1st time, i saw u, can see tat u cant express urself well.
everythin keep inside ur heart.
when u start to talk, i was quite shock tat u are very active.
coz when we talk, was in desmond car.. suddenly he was so quiet..
so anyway, tat's was not important.
during cg or any event, can see tat u try to act like a lady..
then when at beach... when hold ur hands, jst realize that this girl is not what i think.. she more weaker than she is..
she needs more encouragement, security, comfort..
then from there we start to sms or msn.. "
I wonder...
After viewing one of my friend's profile...
give me a breath...
wow... Love is so powerful!
Even gal with gal...
I could hardly accept it now...
Even though I experienced it before...
Somebody asked me before: How can you fall in love with a gal??
I couldn't answer. Perhaps the feeling of LOVE was there.
I loved her before.
Maybe that's my 1st love. That's why I loved her lots.
Thanks for loving me so much as well.
Anyway, everything had passed.
She is still a SHE now. What I can say is: You're always so handsome! haha...
To all the gals who loved me before, honestly speaking,
I'm sorry. i had never being a TOM BOY.
Just characterize like a guy only. hehe...
Sorry for not accepting the love declaration from you all...
Thanks for all the memories...
Miserable days?
Whole day just wasted like that. Eat, sleep, chatting...
Hmmm...
assignment... still at the starting point... no idea where to start... Can anyone help me? Urgh...
I'm always doing the last minute job... I shouldn't do that... I know.. but I'm just lazy!
Reaching the last day of long break... Now only I wana start my assignment... gone case...
I'm still under low mood...
What is "secret couple"? Why should secret couple exist???
Tell me if you are a so called "GUY"!!! (I thought you're mature enough!)
What's the point you want me to be a secret girl friend?
Am I so cheap?? Holding hands, kissing... only in the dark place???
I was so disappointed to all ur requests... especially SECRET COUPLE!!!
Well, if you dare to date, then what for you want everything to be in secret???
I don't think it's rational to do that... (for me)
Another case comes to me...
I should tell you... Don't force me to do what I don't like to do..
Every call, every message, I was the one who get bom everytime...
Did you ever think of what you are doing?
Love is not by force!
All the way you only target to have her...
but... what you did hurts her everytime...
I really thank Desmond so much...
Now, I know how to avoid...
I had learn to avoid, ignore, reject...
This few days... I rejected quite a number of dates...
I remember what you told me...
Thank you Des...
"Is anyone of you in trouble? He should pray.
Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise."
James 5:13
I miss my cell group..
I really miss it...
My cg leader called... asking how come I'm not coming tonight?!
Hello! I'm still in Sibu la...
Anyway, thanks for his concern.
Thanks for all the encouraging messages...
Praise the Lord..
3.38am
PRE - Fairy Tales
整夜睡不着觉，脑海一片混乱，爱情真的来了吗??
爱情的魔力让我无法入睡。我该怎么办? 我好难受...
感情的伤痛在我心中留下了抹不去的累痕。
面对新的恋情，我不晓得该如何去接受，给我一段时间.. 我不想再次承受那么大的打击。
你所言的一切，无形中给了我好大好大的压力。
面对你，我只有恐惧，压迫感。我很难受...
让我们顺其自然好吗? 我并不是不给我自己和我们机会，而是我怕我没能力去应付。
我不想让一切重演。我们先做朋友好吗? 让我先专心读书，先把这学期做好。
如果一切允许的话，我会到古晋一趟；
如果不允许的话，只好将一切带去澳洲了。好吗?
我知道我们一切的一切都是从海边开始的，我们玩冲浪的那一刻开始，我都记得。
只不过当时我没有顾虑太多，更不晓得爱情的火花已经被点燃。
让我印象最深刻的...
其实~~就是当你的手紧紧抓着我不放开的时候，我很惊讶，因为大浪的冲力已经将我们全部人的手冲开，可是你我却没有被松开。
当时并不懂太多，只是深深体验到被你维护的感觉。
曾经我很珍惜你对我的疼爱，我被感动过，
但我真的不想因为感情而再次失去一个那么照顾我的朋友。
如果神允许我们这辈子不分开，我愿意去接受一切。
但我希望我不会再做错的选择。
神把你带到我的身边，
我愿意去更深一层认识你，一直到故事的开始...
Memories...
3 years...
What is the most valuable thing that he gave me?
Hmmm... lots... the most expensive one should be mp4 (i guess)...
All the big big cutie bears... still left in my room...
I miss the big NEMO, big PIGGY, big SNOOPY, big BEAR, big DOLL...
I miss the hand made chicky, hand made name key chain from you...
All the little useful things in my study life which should accompany me to Australia... mp3, mp4, pendrives... gone...
Every little little thing that he did for me... brings memories to me...
My birthdays, valentine days... and also Chinese New Year, Mid autumn festivals, Christmas... You gave me lots of surprises (which I never expected) and sweet and touching memories...
I remember the 1st surprise that you gave me was you cancelled your flight to Kuching and celebrated my birthday for me at Tanahmas Hotel...
Also, the loves that you made with 19 candles at Li Hua Island... touches me lots...
All the roses that you gave me... dried up... you are the one who gave me the most roses...
No matter it's a special day or just a normal day, you gave me roses...
I asked you why suddenly give me roses?
You said even it's a normal day, I'm still loving you...
Few times you cooked for me,
few times you went to my NS camp,
few times you ran through the whole Kuching city and whole Sibu town to find what I love,
few times you invited me to Kuching and bought tickets for me,
few times you flew over to west M'sia to look for me...
they're all big sacrifices from you...
Well, I couldn't judge which will be the most valuable...
Still.. lots of memorable things surround my life...
Every little thing that you did in my life... I feel happiness...
Makan-makan... bising-bising...
FERRERO ROCHER~~~~
So happy to have chocolates tonight... haha... Didn't have it for so long already...
I loves chocolates... Muahh..
Well, I had a funny session with my bro&sis... Kinda cute... haha... My bro seems to be so mature... talking like a pastor...wow... Some more talking about LOVE... OMG!!!
I miss the time we always had fun together... Hoping for more time to be together... enjoy...
A thankful heart to him...
Yeah... 建辉! Thanks for accompany me during all the sadness moment that I faced.. Really wanna say THANK YOU so much...
Lazy + Tired + Sad = ???
Huh... sleep a lot... no mood to start my assignment... till Melody called and ask me to do it!!! Still... so lazy to do it... haha... Anyway, thanks for encouraging...
For the past two days, I felt really really sad... I'm in a low mood... receiving few sad messages from him.. really pity his life now... Anyway, God may guide his way...
Nothing to say for the moment... Just wanna take a long rest...
Sick sick sick.....
Huh... FLUing... So tiring... Hope Redoxon will help me... Argh...
Well, so happy to get some of my classmates from primary school back. Having a long chat with Fransic, gorek a lot of info from him as well. Hehe... However, however, however... he had forgotten who am I!!! My goodness!! He said I had changed a lot!! Haha... Of course... So happy... finally he still be able to recognise me... Yeah~~
Also, get to find some of my friends in friendster...
To all my primary or secondary schoolmates or classmates, please add me on friendster!!!
Hurry up ya!!!
★★谁可以陪我去看星星?★★
★★我可以★★
这样得情绪 有种距离
你 放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨 下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你得背景 有我爱你~
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明 我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽 是因为你
情 没有地址的信
这样的情绪 有种距离
你 放著谁得歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
雨 下的好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 他真的不容易
在你得背景 有我爱你
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用多说明 我就要和你在一起
我不想又在一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次的美丽 是因为你
我可以 陪你去看星星 不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起 我不想 又再一次和你分离
我多麼想每一次得美丽 是因为你
A song that touches my heart...
是否记得 为你做的
某个片段 某件事情
想对你说 要你快乐
这样的心愿从一而终
你的眼泪在夜里滑落
我也像流星坠落
若你笑了
我好比灿烂的花朵
我答应你 成为你梦想的王子 永远的爱护你
你是我的公主 占据我的生命
我愿为你 筑起我俩幸福爱的小天地
不论宇宙多大 只想守护着你
@不论宇宙多大 只想守护着你……@
~ ~ 50th Independent Day of Malaysia ~ ~
Happy National Day, anak-anak Malaysia!
Aku cinta Malaysia!
Malaysia Boleh!!
I can read this. Can you?
fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too.
Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe can.
Work harder!!!
At noon, different kind of feelings running in my heart when I was able to chat with a friend, a guy indeed. I was happy but I was sad at the moment as well. He is so special to me, but I couldn't have him. I knew that the memories were still there, I hardly forget them. I need some times to get rid of those memories. Eventhough I'm not beside you, do take care of yourself.
Tonight, I went out with my family. It was a bit quite late. We didn't manage to watch the occasion tonight. Anyway, let's have a walk in Wisma Sanyan. Lots of people around, but still a big difference compared to life in west Malaysia. What I saw was the little young girls, about 15-16 years old, so fashion in their dressings.. Huh... maybe I'm old-fashioned, I don't really like that type of wearings. I would rather prefer mature type.. hehe.. tat's me..
Anyway, I'm now waiting for the countdown.. MERDEKA!!
Lazy pig...
Whole day doing nothing, feeling so lazy. Life as a pig, eat & sleep. Hopefully won't put on weight.
Chatting with a sister, getting to know something that hurts me. Anyway, everything had past. Set myself free from previous memories. Unforgettable memories running throughout my mind. Eventhough my dream had broken, well, just let it goes. Have a better one for myself.
Little Prince, where are you? I'm sure that God will provide me with the best choice.
Wat do I want from him? Definitely LOVE & CARE & HONESTY!!! I need love & cares a lot. I'm weak. I need supporter to strengthen my heart. Encouragements will do. Show me your cares & loves.
Anyway, I should tell myself "Be strong & be faith in HIM".
I do my BEST, God do the REST!
Jia You!!
Happy Birthday...
First of all, I wanna wish Tau Tau Happy 20th Birthday!!
Stay handsome & PERFECT always ya, Perfectionist!
Next, also wish to say Happy Birthday to all August babies!
Veron, Ching Kit, Shantini & Shirley, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Guys & gals, wishing you all a wonderful & blessed birthday!!
Love you all...
~ ~ L . O . V . E ~ ~
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not pround.
It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it is keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices, with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.
LOVE NEVER FAILS.
1 COR 13:4-5
Happy Holidays & Happy Birthday...
It's an excited day today
Can't wait to go back to my hometown
Early in the morning
I went to LCCT with Melody and her young-looking mum
Chatting and laughings flow around me
So happy to meet with my family after 2 hours distance
So great to see my niece had grown fatter and fairer
Taking care of her for the whole noon
Sleeping with her, playing with her
The most wonderful celebration came at night
It's my lovely sister's birthday today
Here, I wish my sis (Joan) - - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
It's a wonderful day today
Hoping that tomorrow will be even better...
Broken World - Across the Sky
Friends say goodbye
Plans come undone
Dreams get crushed
Lies get cold
Words can turn cruel
Hearts can grow cold
In a broken world where we cry to feel
Some hope that helps these hearts to heal
You're my strength, You're my refuge
In a broken world, Jesus I'm holding to You
You make sense of the madness
And You make darkness flee
To the chaos in me
Show me life
Tell me truth
Day after day I keep running to You
Long ago, we fell so far
Yet You came to where we are
Thanks buddies...
Here, I would like to greatly thank my Yang koko for helping me a lot while I was in danger. Thanks a lot to Chiew Yang and family for taking care of me so much....really really thank you all...I really appreciate the time to have breakfast, lunch and dinner with you all...and having so much fun after the cg gathering and having supper together....some more Uncle's birthday party...I enjoyed it a lot together with all the cousins....I also enjoyed learning how to play my lovely song ~ tong hua (fairy tales) from Micheal's album. I'll try to learn and practise it...hopefully I can play it one day...thanks Chiew Yang's sis as well...Sweet memories with you all will always be kept in my mind...Thank you all...
Also...thanks Veron and Joann for the concern bout my recent conditions....Hope our friendship will never last....Also thanks Liky and Sang Leng for allowing me to stay at your house for the moment...Furthermore, thanks my housemates (Chiao Xin and Hui Na) and also Christine for helping me to solve the matter as something wrong happened in our house...Besides, I also never forget to thank Allen for bringing me to police station and accompany me for the whole procedures...and thanks for waiting me so long...(really sorry)....Thanks Keegan, Morgan Woan, cg members as well for concerning...
Once again, THANK YOU ALL!!!
Great days...
2nd week of study life had gone. I really enjoy myself for the week. These few days, I slept a lot. Don't know why. I also went to have sushi with my friends. And we get to know who is the sushi queen, definitely is not me. After dealing with all the bacterias, they are so interested to have Salmonella instead of Salmon sushi. Oh my goodness..
I gave my little angel a special drink, which he thinks that he wont drink it anyway. Nevermind, just keep it and appreciate it.
Last night, I had been dreaming of him for the whole night. The happiness that we gone through, I really miss it. Eventhough the time is really short, but at least we loved each other with true heart. I'm now away from you, but the heart of missing is still there. I had tried to forget you, but I failed. What should I do?
Little Prince is still there to support me. Should I give him another chance? Will he appreciate more than ever? What should I do? I don't want to think so much. Just let God decide it for be. I believe that there's an answer in Him.
Just pray.
Build up your spiritual growth with Him. Remain faith in Him.
A message for myself...
Yvonne,
God is guiding your way in front of you no matter how dark the path is.
God is strengthening your heart no matter how tough the life is.
God is making a way for you no matter what problems are you facing.
God had let so many guys to be surrounding you. However, you had let go the right one and chosen the wrong one. You should have giving chances for someone who are really putting efforts on you. You know who are them. And you are regretting for not giving them chances. You were attracted by the sweet words and go for the wrong one. You shouldn't do that. Wake up, Yvonne! Open your eyes and try to know him more next time before you are giving him chance! Don't go for a wrong man!
Now, it's not the right time for you to worry about your little prince. God will provide the best little prince for you. If a man is not suiting you at all, God won't let him to come to you. God will lead a best guy to come into your life. Just wait. Be patient. Just surrender everything to God. God will always be there to listen to your prayers.
Pray hard and trust in the LORD always!
A sad day...a msg for him...
Once again, my mind is messy. I don't know why should I do this. What is TRUE LOVE actually? What does LOVE means? What is LOVE?
Sad memories keep flashing through my mind. I couldn't convince myself to forgive him. I tried so hard, but still I can't. I'm trying to give up but I can't. Maybe it's not the right time, and not the right man.
Loneliness never comes to me since I'm away. I knew that God will always be with me, and my family will always supporting me. Nevertheless, friends around me are always there to support me. My cg members will always care and protect me as well. Thank God for all these. I really really appreciate that!
I'm still waiting. But, how long should I wait for? I just want a confirmation from him, a strong prove from him. Maybe it takes time. So, I should give him some time. I'm indeed exhausted in love. I don't want a love that is unstable, that lies on rumours, and cheatings.
How much do I love him? Why should I keep on forgiving him and keep on receiving hurts? Why? Why should I do like this? It's the worst way to change him. NO! I'm unable to change him. ONLY he himself can change himself. I should let go. Let him to have freedom. Let him to go for what he loves, who he really loves.
Every recovery never stands for 3 months. Before reaching 100 days, everything will be gone. He will go back to his previous mistakes. And I'm receiving the same hurts. Does he really know this? Does he really care my feelings? Does he really sincere to me? If do so, he shouldn't have hurt me once and once. I'm sad.
My final hope and wish is to see him happiness. I think everyone wish to see that he is happiness eventhough he had hurt few girls including me. I hope that God can change his life. I hope that he can realise what he is doing. I hope that he won't hurt me anymore. I hope that I can see a new him.
First day of class reopen...
Before the laziness gone, I had to be alert now! Don't be lazy anymore!
So much comments from my coursemates after my long hair got cut. Some people said that I looked more mature. Thanks! I just cut my hair in order to start a new life. I never sad of cutting off my long shiny black hair. One of my friends said that previously my hair looked black and shiny but now, short and brown. Anyway, really need more cares on my hair as well. Also, some saying that I get thinner, some saying that I get fatter. I also don't know how it happens. Thin + fat = unchanged! Right?
Today also went shopping with girls. Different girls, different tastes, different comments. Anyway, I really enjoyed it!
A New Day...
Stepping into a new day, the first day of July, I'm leaving to a place for my study. In the airport, I was able to met with lots of friends from my secondary school. Besides, I also met with an important man, a future lawyer, who was my assistant monitor of my previous choir group. He is still unchange, talkative and like to sing.
This new day, I'm sure that God was looking after me. Everything gets fine as I reached here. I'm indeed tiring. But yet I still have to prepare myself to start a new life, new study life. God is good to me. Thank God for letting me to pass all my papers.
This night, I realized that my mind, my thinkings had changed my heart. I received his apology. However, I still couldn't be able to accept him. I need proves by actions. I need them so much to stabilized my trust in him. Please show them to me with your sincerity. I hope that he can change within this two years. I had done part of my job, just because of him, or if not, my future guy.
Anyway, thank God for strengthening my heart during all unhappy moments. I had learnt to be more open-minded. Things go and happen from time to time. Just surrender everything to God. God will make a way for you. Trust in the Lord! Pray hard..
A precious day...
It's the last day of June, stepping into a new half more year of 2007. I couldn't sleep for the the whole night. My mind is indeed messy. The feeling of uncomfortable is in beyond. Early in the morning, I woke up, feeling so tiring and dizzy. I couldn't stop my mind from thinking back what had happened last night.
It's time for packing and get ready for a new day. Tomorrow is guided by today. It's time for leaving and be prepared for a new semester. This night, I went out with my beloved family. Easing my tension, relaxing myself. I also met with a special friend, realizing that he had grown taller. Wuahaha.. I should not think backward. Everything had over. Don't think back. Remember, must be happy and look forward!
No matter what happen, always tell myself that God is always be with me.
BE FAITH, BE STRONG, AND DON'T BE INFLUENCED!
Gambateh Yvonne!!! You can do it!
